Wednesday, December 13, 2006
am i demented or am i disturbed..this space thats in between insane and insecure..
2 more days baby!
Posted by alone in the bitterness at 12:28 AM
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
i dont have to hear you say you're giving up..i know you are...i know you cant take it anymore and i wont blame you for doing so...forget about your promise...leave if you have to....and after that you can return to the old you...i'm sorry for writing on my blog that i liked you..i'm sorry for putting you thru all this, i'm sorry for all this shit i've caused..maybe things are different now..you used to be able to share your problems with me but now like you said you've got no one to turn to so i'm just that nobody...you dont have to apologise cause its not your fault at all.. i'm to be blamed for all this and i'm truly sorry...i'm slashing myself at the rib cage so nobody would know and see the scars..sorry for this unorganise piece of whatever you wanna call it...my mind is just in a total mess
Posted by alone in the bitterness at 1:39 AM
untitled
freedom continues to be a thing i prize most in the world. of course this has led me to drink wines i did not like, to do things i should not have done and which i will not do again; it has left scars on my body and on my soul, it has meant hurting certain people, although i have since asked their forgiveness, when i realised that i could do anything except force another person to follow me in my madness, in my lust for life. i dont regret the painful times; i bear my scars as if they were medals. i know that freedom has a high price, as high as that of slavery, the only difference is that you pay with pleasure and a smile, even when the smile is dimmed by tears.
Posted by alone in the bitterness at 12:04 AM
Sunday, December 03, 2006
life for rent
anyone wants to borrow my life??its for free...and on top of that maybe i'll pay to have your life..
does it sound appealing enough??
maybe it was all a dream that was not suppose to happen to me..somehow it took place by mistake...and now that i'm up i shld just forget about that dream...
Posted by alone in the bitterness at 2:55 PM
Thursday, November 30, 2006
hey i think i'll do better without a stomach so i wont get gastric, a head so i wont get headache and a nose so i wont get either block nose or running nose, haha or maybe both...
Posted by alone in the bitterness at 8:55 PM
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
untitled
why cant i be like any ordinary girl?of all ppl why me?i hate it!!really wish i could end this life of mine..but i cant..it would be a selfish decision...its not like i enjoy doing this to myself...maybe i'm sadistic but not to that extent...i hate it when i'm like that but i just cant help it..?i'm sorry..i can only wish i was different...somehow i feel i have only myself to blame...i'm tired of all this...i need to get out!
Is anybody listening?
Can they hear me when I call?
I'm shooting signals in the air'
Cause I need somebody's help
I can't make it on my own
So I'm giving up myself
Is anybody listening
Wonder if I will survive
How in the hell did I get so far away this time
So now I'm sitting here
The time of my departure's near
I say a prayer
Please someone save me
Posted by alone in the bitterness at 11:47 PM
Thursday, November 23, 2006
its the fucking emo season baby
i wanna go up to daddy and ask him for smokes...and then smoke my life away
i'm know i'm not ok but i say i am...dont ask me why..cause i really dont know why
if i'm gonna get hold of the pen knife, i'm not gonna stop slashing myself
i dont know whats wrong
i fucking cant sleep
but well i'm gonna cry to sleep
hate this feeling
well i'm better off dead
fuck off
this is me
Posted by alone in the bitterness at 1:01 AM
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
its the emo season baby
wanna get away...
maybe you forgot about it...
another 23 more days...
Maybe I'm a girl and maybe I'm a lonely girl
who's in the middle of something
that she doesn't really understand
Posted by alone in the bitterness at 10:58 PM